daily dosage

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 15:46:21 GMT

i'm so lonely

wanted to do some christmas shopping today. but couldnt find anyone who was available.. i even resort in asking my brother if he wanted to come along with me.. but the answer is somewhat obvious.. so i went out on my own.. wished my ipod was working. so i could block out all the sound that was surrounding me. but no, its dead as hell.

took a train, coz i wasnt rushing or meeting anyone. guess what. it rained. just when i decided to take the train, it had to rain. so i was kinda wet, (thankfully the rain was not that heavy) as the bus stop was not sheltered to the MRT. bought my parents' presents and daming's! (: went out around 12 or 1, and by 4 i was home. oh, and i took train back. i had alot to carry, if you were wondering.. the power of being alone. :/

came home, and brother was going out. he was gona meet his friends then guess what. they were going clubbing at st. james... my brother is clubbing like, now? and i am alone at home. kinda sucks, i never liked being alone.. i miss my parents. ): they're still on holiday.

looking forward to meeting the girlfriends tomorrow for our christmas dinner. (: only disheartening thing would be i have to return home earlier than i would want to, coz the next day id have to do a A380 hongkong turn. so, no joke. id probably go paint my nails later since ive nothing to do. haha. :/

cant wait for daming to reach frankfurt.. but ive no calling card to call him. sighs. maybe id ask him subscribe to the internet. :p

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 08:13:00 GMT

i feel so lonely when you're not around. i seem to take for granted whenever i have loads of time with you. but when you're not around, everything seems so empty and quiet. nobody to argue/irritate/annoy me, nobody to make me smile, make me feel loved/comfortable, nobody to pamper me. all i hear now is the clocking ticking, and the world is moving on without you here... and when im alone, i'd start to regret not cherishing the time that i had with you. i miss you already, tham daming..

sydney at 5am, taxi would be here at 4am. sighs. not much to sleep. :/ wanted to come home (from daming's place) in the afternoon once he leaves for hongkong. but decided to stay and accompany his sister and cousin. coz even if i came home, id be alone and would emo anyway. haha. went to play badminton (for a short while) with them and later decided to bring his little cousin to GV. caught the show PLANET 51. its a damn kiddy show lar, but his cousin sort of enjoyed it. (:

christmas is nearing and ive yet to get any gifts!!! :/ need to go shopping really really soon!!! okay, gota go paint my nails and pack my stuff for tomorrow's battle to sydney. ive got a feeling id have a check report. argh. xiaoting, you're so lucky to be over this (soon!!!).

as tham said...

"life sucks, bear with it"

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 19:20:05 GMT

YESTERDAY - my last day of annual leave

daming and i drove to sentosa. it was a super last minute thing that i didnt have any bikini or change of clothes, neither did i have my shades nor cap. both daming and i both didnt have camera coz my parents took mine to their holiday in cairns while daming's sister took his to batam for her holiday.. so anyway,we took the LUGE (finally!!) 3 times.. by the 2nd time we were kinda bored. there were so many kids and auntie that went so super slow on the luge that they kept blocking the way. we also went to nua at the beach (in the shade...) and went cycling (finally!!) from siloso to palawan to tanjong beach and round and round the few beaches, that my butt ached so badly. haha. nua-ed around the merlion till its time for songs of the sea thingy.

credits: daming's iphone

initially i thought it was damn cui coz of the kids singing VOON-DEI-DE-PA-DEI-VOON-DEi-VI-DI and CHAN-MALI-CHAN.. but it got much (x1000) better when the lightings, water display, fire show and image thingy came out. quite spectacular i must say. (: kinda impressed actually. but the whole songs of the sea show was too short. it was only a 25min thing?? for 10bucks a person. hmm.

oh, we went night swimming at my place! (: havent went swimming for quite a long time, so it was pretty nice. but the pool was too cold, so we didnt stay long either. cant believe i did so much in my last day of leave. the rest of my normal days are pretty much nua-ing around or movie or shopping. :/

and by the way. DO NOT WATCH THE STORM WARRIORS aka FENG YUN. it SUCKS big time. mega big time. trust me. its the WORST show ive seen in this year. >:(

went back to work today, and im really really shag. did a jakarta turn, daming sent me to work in the morning. and he waited at the airport for me to end, camped with his macbook till i touch down back into sin at 735pm. thanks baby, for waiting so long for me!! (: drove to tampines ikea after work (i changed out of uniform) for dinner and bought some stuffs. (:

WEDNESDAY NIGHT - girlfriends' night
(pictures will be up soon!)

met up with the girlfriends for dinner at makansutra. first time we are actually eating local food together. its always western, japanese etc. so anyway, decided to go clubbing awhile, since we were just next to DXO. but they were having a private event, so could go in only after 11pm. wanted to go Butterfactory, but one of kat's friends said the queue was really long. decided to head to zouk instead. we were totally not dressed for clubbing, coz it was a last min thing. so we were in shorts, slippers and casual stuff. delia and yvonne had to leave early coz de has work and von has school. the rest of us stayed on till 1plus i think, coz they had to go somewhere too the next day. so, it was a short clubbing night, but i really had fun with you girls! (: xoxo.

alrighty, im going to bed now, ive work AGAIN tomorrow. going to bali and back only around 1030pm. physically and mentally shag after such a long break from work. :/ nights everybody! its zouk out now actually. ): wish i could go.

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 18:37:02 GMT

i feel that i need anger management.. i get agitated/irritated at the slightest thing on earth. i vent my anger on someone so innocent eg daming or my mum.. so much so, that when i cool down i feel so guilty/mean about it. sighs. im such a bad girl. ): i should start counting to 10 before i trash out on someone again.. :/

went to trim my hair today.. not much difference.. they sort of blow my hair? so its no longer wavy/curly.. its like.. straight? i hope it becomes wavy/curly again after i wash.. coz i think i prefer that hairstyle... straight hair suddenly seems so... normal..? i dont know. haha.

my parents are going to cains, aussie tomorrow till the 15th.. before i can even make any plans eg clubbing or stayovers, my brother told me his friends are coming over tomorrow night and on friday night. WTH... super sian. so which means, tmr i will be home with all his friends in the house.. ): but, the next few nights i most probably at daming's place. (: my parents left the car for daming to drive me around. (: so ya, he can drive me to work and fetch me back . heehee. :D

we all fear what we do not understand

Sun, 06 Dec 2009 14:23:08 GMT

BANGKOK <3

(pictures are up on facebook!)

had a short trip to bangkok with daming. basically just shop, eat, massage, dvd and sleep. haha. rest and relax trip. shopping.. only suan lum night bazaar had interesting/nice things to buy. they're cheap, but not VERY cheap. and not everything is worth buying. so yeah. but all in all, not too bad. bought some stuff here and there. (: eat.. some of the thai food was disappointing.. like the tomyum soup i had at 2 places, was not as good as i expected. even thai express's is much better!! but of coz, there are some days that we had great meals. you get what you pay for, basically!

we spent about 5 hours on thai massage in total! 1hr per day, in general. again, some was pretty good and some was... disappointing. i wish i could have thai foot massage everyday after work!! bought 3 dvds to watch at night when there was nothing to do. G-force, Gamer and My Sassy Girl. but.. the first 2 was alright. clear and all. for my sassy girl.. it stopped working towards the end of the show whereby the girl is gona find out the guy's declaration and all. and it just stops there....... ): so saddening. so have to go look for the dvd again. argh. irritating.

went to the grand palace where they filmed the show "the king and i". haha, it was a really hot day and we had to be covered up coz sleeveless and short pants/skirts aint allowed. pouts. so i was really dying in the heat. did my gel nails (finally!) on the 4th day. and it took only 1hr for it to be done!! the thai manicurist couldnt understand when i said i wanted the glitered tip, so i did french instead. pretty cheap, after converting its about $60. half of what ive to pay for if i do it in singapore!

6 more days of my leave. time really passes by so quickly when im enjoying it. ): soon id have to go back to work. and im so not looking forward to that.. :/ daming has returned to work already this morning.. poor him. back last night and today he had to wake up early for work. :/ daming brought me to a rooftop fine dining restaurant for our 1 year anniversary celebration (in advance). and the place was really nice. ambience and food was great! the only thing was, daming was wearing berms. hahaha. and they had strict dress code. so made him wear an oversized pants... hahha. quite funny.

caught the show mulan, and its so different from the Disney's version!! a really nice show, but eng wah cinema sucks honestly. the seats are so uncomfortable compared to cathay or GV! oh wells. anyone has my sassy girl? i wana watch the ending! ):

i wana go paris/london for holiday with daming! looking forward for the next leave in april...!!!

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 08:24:02 GMT

do you believe in karma?

yesterday, went shopping with my mum at vivo. havent been to that place in a long long time. spent quite alot actually. :/ coz i bought a pair of adidas boots - $179 (after 10% off). will show you guys in pictures after ive worn it ya. pity we cant wear boots in singapore. ): we actually can, but we'll just be the laughing stock.....

so anyway, mum and i found an iphone in the ladies. wanted to pass it to the cleaner. but.... (no harm here) we decided not to coz we were afraid the china cleaner will keep it for herself instead....... so we tried calling "home" and "mum" but no one answered. i was kinda mean, so i sneaked into her privacy and read a few messages...... i wanted to see who she was close to mah.... realised it was her birthday. feel so sad for her, lost her phone on her birthday. and finally, after awhile i found two messages to her sons. asking them to go home for dinner. haha. sms-ed her son and short while later she called back. and tada! long story cut short, she got back her phone eventually. so, did a good deed yesterday. (:

i didnt know there was a movie MULAN in cinemas now?!!! i sooo wana watch!! i loved the disney cartoon mulan and i watched it 10000 times when i was a kid. but id be leaving for holiday to bangkok tomorrow morning! so im really hoping by the time i get back it'll still be screening... :/ planned to do my gel nails today! but.... laziness overtook my plans.. and so im still at home.. maybe i should just do it at bangkok like daming said? coz its cheaper also. hmmm.

i'm on leave now, till the 11th december. one by one my precious days are counting down..!! off days and leaves are soooo precious so i wana make the most out of them? BUT. im wasting one day away NOW coz i was too lazy to do my nails. :/

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 16:05:56 GMT

i just read xiaoting's livejournal, and she has sent her resignation later already.. =0 seems so fast, reality is starting to sink in. she is leaving for something else, and i am still stuck here. actually, i think i will be here for quite a long long time... i have to admit that i dont hate the job as much as i did when i first started.. and i also dont hate it as much as xiaoting does? flying is so much more fun especially when im on the same flight as my boyfriend. so i guess that explains why i am still here while she is leaving.. :/ wanted to change flights so that we could do a flight together for the last time before she quits. but cant coz she has rome when im still on annual leave. and the other flights are just not worth changing for.. oh wells. ): i wish u all the best in 2010 okay!! happy studying, do what you like and be happy babe! (:

i am currently at istanbul and will be leaving for dubai tomorrow morning. cant wait to be back as i would be on annual leave from then, and daming and i would be going to bangkok for our holiday! (: this whole trip to dubai and istanbul, i didnt spend on anything except on room service, food and i bought a metallic black ring from swatch. haha. it quite cool coz i can change the dates on my ring. wanted to buy one for daming too to make it as our couple ring, but i dont know what's his finger size? haha. :p opps. heehee.

december seems like a busy month? have to start buying presents and make arrangements and all. simply cant wait for christmas! (:

HAPPY 11TH MONTH BABY!!!
i havent thought of what to buy for our 1 year anniversary present yet... hahaha. :p

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 18:52:43 GMT

i am back from the slums of india.

daming and i failed to go sightseeing coz we were too lazy and it wasnt really very safe for us to move around the area. there are too many locals and its just not safe in india.. its not like singapore where we can move around readily and safely. so we practically nua-ed the whole 3 days we were there. we watched dvd and played games on his mac till its 6am and we wake up only at 6pm. that was our life for the past 3 days. haha. but of coz, i enjoyed your company baby. (: didnt feel like going back to civilisation as long as im with daming.

just being random here, i think will power is very important? daming's sister and brother are going through this media-fast thingy. (some church thing) whereby they arent allowed/prohibited from doing anything related to the media.. like tv, internet so on and so forth. erm, sad to say daming's brother has times of 'break-fast' and you see him using the internet and playing wii. but, his sister has a really strong will power i must say. she hasnt been using the internet (im guessing so..) neither has she played wii, even when daming tried to tempt her. im impressed. many of us would feel uneasy without the internet in just a few days. i admit, even though im a technology idiot, the least i would do is visit facebook or blogs. just like this other collegue was telling me, facebook is a must everyday. wow. i wonder how michelle could go on for a month, and exams has just ended for her. i really admire her will power man. claps hands.

introducing daming's little cousin, brian! he is really cute but like any other kid, annoyingly mischievious at times.

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 16:12:18 GMT

BONJOUR!

back from paris, and pictures are already up on facebook! go take a look if you're keen. ive been trying to persuade my parents to let me go on holiday with daming to bangkok in december.. but so far they've yet to say yes..? sighs. the past few times i didnt tell them it was just me and him alone. this time i decided to be completely honest, but they've not agreed yet... ): we've booked the tickets already by the way. decided on jetstar coz the timing is just nice and also its much cheaper than SQ or thai or any other airlines.. SQ was initially about $600 when we first checked.. we delayed abit coz my parents havent agreed and all, and just now we checked, it was already $800.. so daming and i decided to go ahead and book with jetstar first, before the price goes any further before my parents decided to be kind and nod their stubborn heads. :/

caught 2012 yesterday night, its quite a good show! 2.5hrs though. and caught the korean show, my girlfriend is an agent just now. quite a funny show. not bad too. go watch these 2 shows if you havent! (: will be leaving for ahmedabad with daming tomorrow. yes, i know its a boring place to go, but its the only flight i was able to change to, to do with daming this month.. he was not able to change to my paris or new york. so ahmedabad.... here we come...!

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 06:50:17 GMT

i'll be leaving for PARIS tonight.

i feel half delighted, half dreading.. :/ delighted coz its gona be my first time there and ive always wanted to visit paris. besides new york and london, paris is the next big place ive kept in place as a MUST visit. reasons why im not really looking forward to this paris is coz, there's a collegue on board whom daming and i have conflict/misunderstanding with before. long story, dont ask. so its gona be kinda awkward. sighs sighs. and also coz i heard on the way back from paris it's a day flight, and thus its kinda tough. :/ oh wells. i just hope paris would be worth all these crap.

i bought myself a pink flower the other day. it looks so pretty and its only $2 i cant resist. haha. now its sitting right infront of me, peeping through the top of my macbook. (: just that, by the time i get back from paris on thursday, it'll probably be withering already. :/

oh, i just checked the weather in paris and its gona be freezing cold. like 3 to 8 degrees? sheesh. and i really hope there wont be any flight diversion or delays coz in the weather report, its said to have fog and bad weather on the day id be returning back to sin. HMM. let's hope id be able to come home on time.

i'm simply looking forward to ahmedabad with daming. (:

the scientist - coldplay

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:51:54 GMT

Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start.

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 17:32:16 GMT

i'm having a little problem.. i dont know why, but i cant seem to upload pictures from my iphoto to my livejournal? not good. ):

was supposed to treat my mum for lunch, but i sort of overslept.... woke up only at 3pm... :/ sorry mummy! another day.. met haowen and i took a train down okay. coz my mum was going town to meet her friends too. and she didnt wana take cab... so i had to accompany her... i didnt know they've set up barriers at jurong east station!! apparently to prevent people from falling over to the tracks? okay, sidetrack there. later at night, met anthea, her boyfriend lance, and amanda. atee was playing at old school, timbre. it was good to see them after quite a long time. (: anthea and lance left early though.

so anyway, haowen and i were practically bitching about this china couple who sat infront of us. her long black straight hair was like a mane. flirting around her bf by sweeping her hair here and there. haowen and i were just grossed out by the whole thing. HA.

when you're not around, everything reminds me of your absence.
i keep thinking of the things we would say or do.
i miss you baby.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 14:33:11 GMT

you play it cool

i have fully recovered from the unknown sickness in new york.. thanks everyone for asking. (: my off day was sort of taken away and will be on 2 days of standby on the 6th and 7th.. growls. anyway, ive managed to change over to daming's AHMEDABAD flight!! heehee. yes, i know its a very UNinteresting and shit station.. but, at least i get to spend 4 clear days with daming in.... India............. HAHA. we'll probably just dvd and nua and eat and sleep and... i dont know. rot together. HAHA. guess what, i paid $300 just for these 5 days with him. so my standby better not disrupt our flight together or id be very annoyed.

i just asked my mum if she is working tomorrow, and she replied "no, why. you want to buy me lunch har?" haha. how cute. OH, ive caught the show my sister's keeper. not too bad, we missed the first few minutes of the show coz we were a little late.. i did not really tear actually. :/ cried more over my cantonese drama. HA.

im going bangkok in december and i cant wait!! :D and wii is damn addictive. played with daming and his siblings till like 2am? haha. they're damn competitive and i keep losing!! haha. but its really fun, good investment there. (:

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 19:57:00 GMT

i am officially uncapable of working back to singapore.

2.15am: my stomach hurt really badly i thought it was gastrics..
2.30am: tried to eat chocolate coz i thought it was gastrics..
2.45am: called daming to wake him up, he's on his way home from paris now
3am: puked last night's dinner out, and had soiled fluid flowing out of me aka lao sai.
4am-7am: stomach still hurts like crazy, puked and lao sai another 3 more times.
7.15am: called for the hotel doctor, and he said he wont be able to do anything for me and asked me to go to the hospital. myself.
7.45am: still contemplating on going to the hospital, hoping that miraculously id recover.
8am: almost died from all the puking, took a cab to the nearest hospital.
8.15am: was made to wait awhile, and i was referred to the children's section. CHILDREN dammit. coz im 20 and legal age here is 21. great.
8.30am: surrounded by crying babies and doctors who think im a kid.
9am: urine test, dont know for what. they didnt even come back to me with it.
9.30am: took down my records. (i didnt know i forgot to add in my unit number.. realised only when i was back in the hotel.. so im thinking how are they gona bill me? dont know, dont wana know...)
10am: injected me and placed me on drip for an hour.
11am: waited quite abit for the nurse to help me remove the needle and tell me im okay to go back already.
12pm: paperwork and letter of excuse, and i was out of the hospital.

came back to hotel and feeling a little feverish and weak. been lying in bed and thus having this really bad headache that doesnt go away. dont dare to take any medications of my own coz im afraid i'd just vomit it out. doctor's prescribed medicine, but ive to get it from a pharmacy. and im too weak to find one right now. sighs. this is what happens when you're alone. you've got no one to help you.

now im just waiting for time to pass. id be flying back as a passenger later. a sick passenger. some other girl will replace me.. poor her. one day less in new york. ;/ feel so bad actually. ive got a long journey back later on. 8hrs from nyc to frankfurt. and another 13hrs from frankfurt. sighs. i just wish my headache and fever would go away. then i wont feel so weak.

argh. i wish my boyfriend or my mother was with me. ):

i want to go home.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 00:12:18 GMT

祝我生日快樂

我知道傷心不能改變什麼
那麼　讓我誠實一點
誠實　而沒有不能控制的宣洩
只要關上了門　不必理誰
一個人坐在空蕩包廂裡面
手機　讓他休息一夜難　
想切割切掉回憶的畫面
眼淚不能流過　十二點
生日快樂　我對自己說　蠟燭點了　寂寞涼了
生日快樂　淚也融了　我要謝謝你給的　你拿走的一切
還愛你　帶一點恨　還要時間　才能平衡
熱戀傷痕　畫面重生　祝我生日～快樂

i'm so in love with this sad song its on replay. hahaha.

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 12:25:06 GMT

THE BIG APPLE

its turning to winter now. the GMT yesterday was -4 and today its -5. its amazing how one hour of my life in NY just disappeared coz if GMT change. its really weird. haha. its 815am now and im gona meet my collegues for breakfast, then gona make a trip down to soho. went to 5th avenue yesterday for a little shopping. but guess what! i didnt buy anything at all. couldnt get anything that appealed to me. :/ hopefully id be able to buy some gifts and stuff from soho later on.

its halloween and people are out celebrating. but im not. how sad. anyway, i was really homesicked the other day in frankfurt that i sms-ed my mum that i miss her and my dad. HAHA. i feel like a small kid everytime i do that. :p

anyway, its daming's brother's birthday today and it's his sister's birthday tomorrow! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE if you're reading this! i dont have your number so i can only wish u here! hope you'll have a good day. (: cheers!

off to SOHO!

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 14:13:45 GMT

HELLO I AM IN FRANKFURT

1. i want to go home. i still have 6 more days to go, ive not even left for new york. SIGHS. ):
2. ive finished watching my cantonese drama, wish i brought more dvd to keep me entertained..
3. daming has left for paris. so nobody to call me and talk to me when im lonely. ):
4. internet in room is not working again. so im in the shared computer room.
5. telephone in room is not working. so i couldnt order room service. >:(
6. i wish lace was in NY again, so i could go around NY with her. it'll be so much more fun. now im just looking forward in going home.

okay, my post sounds so depressing.

anyway, celebrated alina's birthday at her place, pictures are up on fb. love you girls. (:

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 11:53:41 GMT

havent updated for quite awhile. so basically, these are what happened..

went to london on my first a380 flight the other day. turned out quite alright, but really need some getting use to. did the flight with jaslin, was supposed to go sightseeing at stonehedge, but she didnt really wana venture out. ): pouts. so we ended up shopping at westfield on our clear day. bought quite alot of stuff actually. spent about $800 on a pair of boots from zara, 5 clothings, a burberry bag, and daming's fred perry polo top. wasnt able to claim tax refund for my burberry bag coz the bus that was supposed to take us to the airport was late, due to chealsea being in london that day.. sighs. so wasnt able to claim my 11pounds. haha. thankfully its not that much.

came back from london and the very next morning i met xinyi, kat and delia for ktv at topone, bugis. we were there from 11am to 530pm!! but not too bad, many songs i cant really read the chinese words though. oh wells. :/ then went over to bugis junction to meet yvonne and alina to celebrate alina's 20th! (: the food at v8 was alright. not that good though. went over to jurong point to design alina's birthday cake and get some drinks for the stayover.

the stayover party was quite fun, played games and drank and did many hilarious things. we stayed up till about 4am! but because everyone had to leave early the next morning, i decided to cab home instead of staying over. pictures will be up soon, havent really had the time to upload coz right now ive been glued to the tv coz of the cantonese drama im currently watching. (:

finally got to meet my boyfriend today after 2 long weeks. but time simply passes so quickly whenever you're enjoying it. id be flying off again tomorrow night to new york. so i only have one day with daming. ): sighs. if only i was able to change over to his paris. ): anyway, im supposed to be checking on air ticket prices to bangkok! we're planning on a short trip early december. (:

p.s we're gona catch the 930pm show julie & julia. wanted to watch my sister's keeper, but bishan gv is not showing. ): so will probably have to catch it another day. cross fingers! i hope by the time im back from new york it will still be showing!! :/

eh eh, daming is back from his shower. gona have to pretend im checking out prices! so bye!!! :D

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 14:31:40 GMT

actually, i typed a whole chunk of words here earlier. but my computer disconnected. and thus, my post disappeared. great. im too lazy to retype everything, so here's roughly what i said...

1. went JB with my parents today.
2. bought quite afew clothings.
3. went ktv with jaslin and jasmine yesterday night.
4. gave up singing after awhile coz i cant freaking read chinese.
5. first A380 flight to london tomorrow night.
6. i am DREADING it. ):
7. shall go pack my luggage now.
8. esther is )':

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 15:03:02 GMT

my new roster is out, quite good actually. i have london (this sunday), hongkong turn around, frankfurt/newyork, PARIS (!!!) and tokyo/LA. quite good flights, but im trying to give away my frankfurt newyork for daming's paris. and probably try to give away my paris coz id be doing it with someone that im not so keen to see. and hopefully daming will be able to change over to do tokyo/LA with me! cross fingers!!

so anyway, i wont be seeing daming for the next 10 to 11 days coz our rosters clashed and we were not able to change flights. ): so i spent a little bit of time with him earlier, before he left for his zurich flight. tomorrow ive a test and ive yet to study. :x

i didnt go for my 6th driving lesson yesterday. :/ coz i was kinda lazy..... :x okay i know its a waste of money lar. sighs. i feel like just not learning anymore. its taking forever!! growls. anyway, i caught the korean show, some tsunami thing. i cant remember the title now, go catch it if u can. its kinda touching and i sort of teared. hahaha. im sucha cry baby i swear.

okay, looking forward to girlfriend's stayover at alina's. not looking forward to my first a380 flight to london on sunday. looking forward to the 26th to see my baby again. i feel like ive been spending so little time with my dad, wanted to come home early to either watch a dvd with him or talk abit. but it was only 1030pm and he was already fast asleep. :/ my mum went on cruise with her friend. haha. so enjoy life. wish i could be like her. no worries nor responsibility. her job is so easy going. and she lives like a queen at home (just that she does the household chores). i wana enjoy life like my mother. unfortunately, she doesnt seem to realise how fortunate she is.

okay, i better go study now. dont wana fail my a380 exam and have to re-take another day! i am free and available on : 17th, 22nd (night), 24th, 25th (night). so whoever is free and wana meet, do contact me okay! loves.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:55:25 GMT

i wish i was skinny again.
i didnt have to worry about how my face would appear in pictures. i didnt have to weigh myself in every weighing scale i see. i wish i was <45kg again.

i wish i was back in CJ.
i never thought i would ever say this, but i do miss the time i had there. i miss the group of friends whom i skipped school with, missed classes/lectures with, ran away from teachers with, stoned together during breaks, and sleep while we were supposed to study, gossiped when we're supposed to be listening to teachers, etc. i never thought i would say this, but i do miss the company i had in CJ. maybe because they were the ones who kept me alive in the world of insanity during that period of time. i miss haowen, amanda, jael, yonglin, cher, lace, anthea, sean, perry. i remember how we hated that place, and how we were dying to get out of there. but now that i think back, i wish i could change the way things became.

i wish there was such thing as camera phones/digital cameras back in secondary school days.
then i would have loads of pictures with my girlfriends back in those days. i hardly have any picture of me in my ij uniform. which is such a waste. i hardly have any pictures of those days when i wore specs and braces and had short hair. memories like these are only kept close to my heart, coz sadly in those days, we werent as fortunate to have digital cameras to capture all the embarrassing yet memorable moments.

i wish it was back to those days where we partied the whole night.
and we didnt have to care if we had work the next day, or school the next morning. the only thing we cared about was whether we had enough to pay for our drinks. now that that isnt a problem, it seems like the partying just stops. the company just breaks apart, and we turn from strangers to friends to strangers again.

there's just so much that we wish for. but in reality, there's just so little that actually comes true. i guess its just not easy, seeing how the things/people you used to hold on to so closely, start to drift further away from you. and you start to wonder : what happened to the times we used to spend together?

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 17:05:00 GMT

i just bought my macbook pro today. (: saved about $200 coz daming has student card. hee, so i got the student price. grins. i gave my sony vaio to his sister. anyway, if i havent mentioned, daming and i shared to buy wii last week. its at his place now, and we've been playing the wii sports with his siblings. haha, im damn cui lor. until today, i won daming in the boxing and my tennis improved. hahhaa. damn funny. its a really good way to work out man i swear. so much energy has to be used that my right arm is aching now!!

im still trying to download stuff and configure my macbook to be somewhat similar to daming's. coz ive been using his at his place im so used to it. haha. so now im only used to his macbook, so must create daming-alike-macbook. HAHA.

ive got to return to training centre for A380 lessons tomorrow.. gotta wake up really early and i havent decided what to wear. :/ dont feel like going. pouts. only good thing is that daming will be there too. hopefully can get lunch time together!! sometimes, when i break too long, i forgot what its like to work, i become too comfortable and happy.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 16:16:45 GMT

2nd day in nanjing, i went to the memorial hall of the nanjing massacre and the confucious temple. the wall memorial was really huge and really alot to see. but like any other museum, it was filled with pictures and artefacts. was kinda annoyed there coz it was really really crowded. and alot of (sad to say) uncivilised chinamen/women pushing and shoving. :/ couldnt take any pictures in the museum, so here's just afew of the outside..

then at night, we went to the confucious temple. there are many shops and eating areas and its all lighted up. so quite pretty. its just like chinatown. but alot more bigger and interesting. they sell dogs, cats, tortoise, fish, birds etc. dirt cheap. i asked the price for a dog, and its ONLY 650RMB. thats like $100+. if only i could bring them back to singapore, i really would. they are so so adorable, and would make a good company to max!! haha. and you know, they are really cruel to the animals.. in the sense that, they put a rabbit in a cage that fits itself and it cant even turn around. the cage is really THAT small. id show you in the picture. and in some shops, afew dogs/cats are squeezed into ONE cage. sighs. ): such a sad sight. OH, and there was this stray PUPPY outside 4 pet shops that are facing each other. and NONE of them cared about it. or should i say, no one even bothered about that puppy. we asked one of the store owners about it, and they simply said someone abandoned it and said "if you want just take it. nobody will want it." so sad!! the other healthier animals are selling like hotcakes and yet there's a stray puppy and no one wants. me and 2 of my collegues were so upset about it. we went to buy some food and fed the poor dog. my china collegue even called a "help" hotline and wanted to get SPCA's number. but. there is no SPCA in china...... how sad.

AND. i got a MAJOR shock in my life. i was really really urgent and needed to pee badly. so we searched high and low for a toilet. when we finally found a public toilet, i got a shock that i didnt want to pee even though i was so so urgent. the toilet cubicle has no door. or should i say, there is no cubicle at all. its just a open area where everyone just squatts there and pee. =0 everyone just simply pulled down their pants and undergarments and peed infront of everyone. i was in total shock i just stared at the scene. i told my china friend that i cant pee like that. and i left. i was so disgusted i swear my pee went back to my bladder. i was in shock.

so anyway, that probably sums up my 2 days in nanjing. will be going back to singapore tomorrow night. i cant wait to be back, had enough of china. 2 days of china, makes me feel that my chinese has improved 100%. hahaha. again, some waiter commented to my china friend that i can speak fluent chinese even though im from singapore. wohoo. so proud of myself. grins. i should go back and take my a level oral. maybe id get more than just a PASS.

will upload pictures once the connection has been restored. in the meantime, i shall go pack my room abit to get ready to fly home tomorrow night. my room is in a mess. haha. daming will say... whats new. :P i feel like clubbing. its been 8 months since i last clubbed. OMGGGG.

Nanjing

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 14:24:21 GMT

im in Nanjing right now. and i cant open facebook coz china sort of blocked out that website? i dont know. so anwyay, went sightseeing to the zhongshan hill. where by we visited the Dr. sun yat sen's mausoleum and the xiaoling tomb of ming dynasty. the place is so so huge that we walked and climbed for hours and hours okay!! really killed my poor feet.

thank goodness the weather was good. 24degrees, so not too cold and not too hot. one area took us hours to cover, coz there was alot of walking to do. oh yeah, and it was just me and another indonesian collegue who went venturing. she cant speak a single chinese. and thus we both depended on my horrible chinese to get us around. surprisingly, these china people can understand me, and in fact they said my chinese was good okay!! (: claps hands. HAHA. one couple even asked which part of CHINA was i from... -.-

anyway, i know all the pictures got me inside. haha. cant be help lar, only 2 of us went mah. :p only took one or two pictures together. one whole day is really not enough for this place as there is so much to see, so much to take pictures and like i said, so much to walk and climb.. when we wanted to leave the mountain/hill it was already 6.30pm and it was so dark already! couldnt get a cab so we just hopped onto a bus which we didnt know was heading to where and in which direction. haha. recognised afew buildings here and there and thus alighted at a bus stop that was 200m away from a hotel. couldnt get a cab at all so headed to the hotel to pee. i was super duper urgent. waited at the hotel and again no cab. we were so frustrated and tired and hungry. gave up, went opposite to grab something to eat. took really long to decide coz there wasnt anything familiar in the menu. in the end, the food turned out not too bad. around 9 we finally managed to get a cab back to the hotel. and alas, here i am with a spliting headache thats pounding against my skull with every heartbeat.

again going sightseeing tomorrow. but we've already covered most of the important ones today. haha. nanjing is alright i guess. not much to sightsee once you've done it. unless you travel out to suzhou and all. wanted to talk to perry online. but he's not here. HTHT!! then wanted to talk to daming, but he's at zouk. wanted to talk to my mum on msn, but my bro's msn not working. sighs sighs. so here i am alone in my hotel room talking to... my livejournal. hurhur.

i wish i have penadol with me now. but i dont. goodnight nanjing & singapore. i'm gona rest my poor worn out feet.

i'm simply just a friction in your fraction.

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 14:43:09 GMT

ive not been updating coz the internet was down in my room in frankfurt. so i lugged my lappy around for nothing. its goddam heavy and thus irritated the shit out of me. so anyway, went to town in frankfurt the clear day, but my phone was not able to detect any signal. so was really pissed off the whole entire day. which thus, led to me being distracted. and hence did not buy anything at all. thank goodness. went to LV, but was busy trying to look for signal that nothing seemed tempting. walked into prada and wanted to buy a wallet ive been looking at for ages. but i didnt. so proud of myself. probably gonna get my macbook soon. so ive to save up. plus i was just telling xinyi and delia about my plans on saving up for my wedding. HAHA.

met them yesterday and we wanted to have tea, like tai tais do. but apparently royal copahagen was really crowded. so we went to coffee club instead. walked abit here and there till xinyi had to leave. was pretty sleepy due to jetlag, thus did not walk longer with delia, and went home for a quick nap. pity, coz id have walked longer with you de, if i was not so tired. miss long talks and walks with you!!

the past few days i caught afew movies, inglorious bastards was alright, funny and not too bad. but not my kinda movie. the time traveler's wife was nice and sweet, but maybe id prefer the book much more. caught the ugly truth just now, hilarious and interesting. haha. most likely gona be movie marathon-ing with daming tonight. (: we've quite a handful of dvds. hee. i just love stayovers. (:

oh, i did not go for my final theory evaluation this morning. it was at 1045am. but i decided that i was too lazy to get up in the morning. and thus $15 down the drain. i think. i hope its not more than that. sighs, im spending alot at this rate for my stupid driving. growls. anyway, ive not met haowen, lace and atee for decades. ): everyone's busy busy these days. which explains why we (delia xinyi and i) carry out organisers around. haha. im looking for a new one coz my 2009 muji black organiser is running out of space. and i need a new one for the coming new year! i saw one that i really like at jurong point. but i just hate the idea of going down just to get it... sighs, maybe some other day or till i see another nicer one. haha.

oh, tham is out of the shower and thus im gona sign off now. xiaoting, if you're free lets meet for lunch some time okay!! (: id be going to nanking on tuesday for 5 days. im actually looking forward to that flight. thats if anyone wants to go sightseeing with me! daming and i are gona buy wii tmr!! :D okie doeky, gota go.